Trusting Jesus When Doubt Whispers

  For years I would wait for summer to come so we could travel to South Dakota.  I loved it there.  It seems something about the Black Hills just pulled on my heart strings.  I couldn’t describe it, but I knew I wanted to be in the mountains.  Over the next two decades my family would make the two day trip out, (we were younger then!) stay the week and then make the trip back!  Once my husband retired, we would take our RV and summer out there.  It was the dream location.

IN THE MOUNTAINS

Then as God would have it, we made a trip down to the Sevierville, TN area.  We were again in the mountains, and we bought a place.  This became the place we wanted to live.  We began building our house and suddenly life was turned upside down.   Charles unexpectedly passed away.

EVERYTHING CHANGED

I made the decision to continue with the build, even though I’d not have Charles to share our dream.  As a widow, everything changes— sort of.  It’s like I had to start all over again, but I’m still doing the same thing.  In many ways I feel like I’m still in waiting mode!

BIG DECISIONS

There’s no question that building a house takes time.  But I’m not even in TN!  I’m in MD!  So I wait!  I wait for updates, pictures, even the bills which need to be paid.  And I wait for the date on the calendar which will initiate my return.

Many years ago a friend said, it’s wrong to ‘wish for things to happen.’  I asked him why.  And he said, ‘when you are so focused on what you want in the future, you miss what’s going on right now; today!  You’re wishing your life away'.  

WAITING IMPATIENTLY

  I know that’s true and I try not to ‘wish my life away’ or even to wait impatiently for the day to come where I’ll journey to my home in the South!  And honestly, it wouldn’t make any sense to go sooner, the house isn’t finished yet!

Waiting is hard! But someone else said, ‘patience isn’t passive behavior—-it’s trust in motion’.  That struck me because it’s not about trust in the people building my house, or anything a person can do.  It’s about trusting God; his timing and will to make everything work together for His good!

CHOOSING TO TRUST GOD

It means choosing to trust God in the moment even when the outcome is unclear!  I can’t help but recall that Jesus died on the cross.  The disciples scattered for a while and then ended up together in a room while they waited.  They didn’t know what to do next!  Their Messiah, the Christ was no more in their space.  He was in a tomb.  They knew he’d died.  They were at a total loss.   Before the event happened, they were positive he was the Christ!  So how’d all this happen?  And why?

WAITING

The how’s and the why’s are questions we ask, too, especially when we are required to wait for something that seems unclear.  But on that third day, Jesus rose again!  They remembered all the things he’d taught them and suddenly it made sense!

Patience doesn’t mean we aren't doing anything.  We are stretching in our faith and growing into the person God wants us to be.  Waiting refines us.  It helps us meet with God and align our hearts with his.  In the waiting we are uncomfortable, perhaps even agitated, stressed and unsure of how to respond, and want to know what to do next.  

PROMISES FULFILLED

But when the waiting is over, there is healing, storms are stopped, lives renewed,
and promises fulfilled.  There is light at the end of the tunnel—-a shimmer of sunshine through the clouds and illumination driving out the darkness.

The reward of the light is realizing that God was working the whole time!  —-Even when we doubted and became impatient for something to happen!  It may seem that ‘things aren’t moving’; and we’ve been waiting for such a long time without seeing the light. 

But the light does come and God isn’t slow in keeping his promises.  He’s got a plan; a design to strengthen us and ‘grow’ us.  Waiting is hard.  But the prize is perfect, more than we could imagine, and in God’s perfect timing.

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Peace In The Chaos

         I was surprised when the phone call came.  He said simply, “I quit!”  The conversation with a person I’d hired six months ago, left me with ‘What in the world am I going to do now?' and a sinking feeling. Taking a deep breath, I thought, “God’s got a plan.”  

After talking with my children, one said, “Maybe it’s a blessing in disguise.”  Another said, “It was time.  It wasn’t working!”  Still, for me, I felt momentarily lost with so many questions about how to proceed with the project he’d been hired to lead.  It was way beyond what I felt I could handle.

I kept reaching out to God until finally, I just told God, I just need your peace.  I know you are there!  You’re weren’t surprised with this ‘event’.  I know you love me and will help me through.

Eventually I calmed down and my son and I created a tentative new plan and he assured me we’d get through.  I prayed again before going to bed and had no issue falling asleep.  But as 4:00 a.m. rolled around, the darkness seemed alive and well in my brain again, just like the cold darkness outside.  I tossed and turned as I relived the conversation and all the questions that followed.

When I woke again, I asked God to give me something to calm me once again.  I wanted so much to just trust Him with what I’d given Him—a total surrender, which was totally genuine, —until all those negative, critical voices came calling again. 

Then there was Bible time!  I love the time I spend with the Lord in the early
morning….before the sun even rises.  And God gave me a verse from Job 29.  “His candle shineth upon my head, and by His light I walk through the darkness.”  Job 29:3

It was totally what I needed.  God’s light is available to me 24/7, even in the darkness when sounds from the depths of blackness begin howling and tormenting.

There’s a song about how when asking for peace during a storm…. that God doesn’t always remove the storm; but he does walk with us through it!  It isn’t that he ‘can’t’ remove the storm; but it’s what we can learn as we walk through it.  

I will learn to depend and trust him even more.  I will be reminded that in God’s strength all things are possible, even about things I know nothing about!  I will be reminded that worry only brings more anxiety, and is horribly unproductive!  I will see that it’s not about my fears, it’s about God’s presence and power.

As of this writing, while the family and I have a plan, we still don’t know God’s plan.  It may be completely different that what we envision.  But that’s okay.  Chaos ma,y in some form, continue to haunt me as I learn how to wait on God, allowing Him to work out the details I don’t know anything about, and more.  And who knows, he might even send a person more suited my needs and way of thinking to replace the person who quit.

I know God is for me and I also understand that Satan is going to do all he can to alter God’s plans.  But God will prevail, because he is all powerful and faithful, with a unique perspective on things unseen, and an enduring love.

As we face this New Year, it’s hard to tell when any of us will have an overwhelming challenge that will seem to overtake the world we have been accustomed to living.  It’s the way of life.  It’s how we respond to these challenges that helps define who we are and indicates how we choose to live.

I expect as the days, weeks, and months ahead, I will need to make decisions I hadn’t planned on.  Still I know if I go to the Lord before I make a decision and wait for him to show me what I should do, it’s much more likely I’ll make the correct decision!

What challenges are you facing today? Have you had a ‘talk with God’ about it? Perhaps this is where you will find his unique peace. 

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Growing Through Challenges and Setbacks

Another year is all but finished.  It’s amazing how time passes when we aren’t paying attention!  We are busy trying to keep our finances above a swirling tug of upward prices while what we have to spend seems smaller.  Additionally the stress of conflicting theories on what to eat, or what not to, along with all the toxins and chemicals that permeate whatever why buy at the store, creates anxiety over our health.  It’s enough to make a person crazy!

EMOTIONAL AND SPIRITUAL HEALTH

Our emotions also take a hit when all this is put together on one plate, as we deal with losses, relationships which seem to change daily, family dynamics, and a changing arena, even in our elementary schools.

I ran into a man, probably in his 60’s in the store today who said simply, “Our world is changing.”  He looked up and continued, “Lord come quickly.”  Along with all the challenges already mentioned, another that needs to be addressed is our spiritual challenges. 

SATAN IS BEING BUSY!

Satan seems to be gaining ground through the political segment of the population, those who seem to tread heavily on —and against —-anything that is good and right that has anything to do with Christ.  We are asked to keep quiet about what we believe while others seem to have the right to share their opinions wholeheartedly, negatively, and absolutely aggressively!

HOW DO WE DEAL?

How are we, as believers, supposed to deal with this on a daily basis?  It’s frustrating, discouraging, and frightening when we see our youth caving to the pressure; causing us to wonder if we’re going to make it through.  Further we find ourselves us asking… ‘why?’ …Why do these things happen?

Honestly the ‘why’ can easily be answered since Jesus said that the world hated him and we certainly, as his followers, should expect no less.  He never promised that we would not have difficulties.  But he did promise to be with us and get us through, when we trust and believe in him.

GOD IS STILL PRESENT

As I’ve dealt with my own grief this last year, I know that God has been with me.  There are times when I crumple beneath all the weight of loss, family dynamics, my own failures in fulfilling expectations, and more.  Yet I find myself drawn closer to my Creator.

GROWTH HAPPENS

It is said that growth often happens unseen—and often uncomfortably!  It causes us to adjust and sometimes shift our traditional thinking, perspective or  emotional ties to understand.  But that does not mean we are supposed to accept those things we believe are wrong?

BEING TESTED?

This may be God’s way of testing us, to show us just what it is we believe.  Are we giving ‘on the fence’ lip service, to an idea or circumstance we clearly don’t agree with, and careful not to share our thoughts. Jesus shared his--even when people disagreed.  

We are called to be faithful.  Are we being faithful when we don’t let our peers know we can’t agree with them and then tell them why…Biblically?  Are we willing to speak up?  When we don’t make it clear where we stand, are we being faithful to who we say we are, or are we suggesting by our silence that we might be swayed to another way of thinking over time?

WALKING THE TALK?

Challenges face us everyday.  People are taking notice of what we do…what we say.. and how we react to what goes on around us.  It’s like that old expression ‘Do we walk the talk, or are we just talking the talk’?  

Satan jumps with glee when we keep silent.  It’s not about beating someone over the head with the Bible, but it is about growing and then being able to present a purpose and faithfulness about what we believe, especially when we face challenges and setbacks.  It’s in these settings, we not only prove who we are to our peers, but to ourselves, and certainly to our Lord.

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The Gift That Found Us First

  I love watching children at Christmas.  They get so excited they can hardly stand it!  Everything about the holiday excites them; decorating, the lights, gifts all beautifully wrapped, the tree, cookies and other snacks made just for this season, and even the music.  Some years ago, one of my little granddaughters had the opportunity to be near the Christmas lights as they were plugged in to see if they worked.  When they came on, her look of pure delight was priceless.

EXCITEMENT IN DREAMING

Kids will dream of what they might get, what they want, and make lists. As the day draws nearer, sleeping can even be a challenge.  Their excitement level is sky high!

As adults, we aren’t much different, although our perspective is on another level.  Ours is more focused on ‘getting things done’.  Sometimes we find ourselves a bit overwhelmed with just a touch of cynicism, as we are overcome with the consumerism and noise that seems to penetrate everything Holy.  Others just get frustrated and say ‘bah humbug’ to the whole affair.

FINDING A DEEPER CONNECTION

Regardless of the distractions seeming to encircling us all around, when we stop for a moment and consider the Gift that came down from Heaven, we can find a joy that is irresistible and irreplaceable by anything this world has to offer.  So how can we rekindle that deeper connection with God we want?  How can we honor God who has given so much to us?

We know when Jesus was born the Wise Men brought gifts to honor him.  How can we experience what must have been an incredible moment when those Wise Men laid their eyes on the small child.  I can’t even imagine what that must have been like.  

        That reminds of the song “Mary Did You Know.”  My favorite line in that song is ‘Mary did you know when you kiss your tiny baby, you’re kissing the face of God.'  Imagine that!  When I really do think on it… invariably I cry.  

HE CAME TO SAVE US

What can I give him?  It’s true, it’s been over 2000 years since he was a tiny babe in that manger in Bethlehem.  He came because God loved us so much, he gave his Son, so we can have eternal life.  He came to take away my sins, so one day I can enter the portal of heaven.  I can’t bring him anything tangible like the Wise Men gave him, but I do have a gift to offer.

GIVE HIM OUR HEARTS

Christmas invites us not only to receive the gift of Christ but to respond by giving Him our hearts and lives.  We can give him the gifts of our worship, our obedience, and total surrender.  We can offer our time, generosity and faith; and the use of the talents he’s blessed us with!  

CELEBRATE THE GIFTS

As we celebrate with a heart of love and joy, God will again bless.  What we offer God in love, He can multiply and bless not only us, but those around us, as well.  Our offerings to Him will generate a sense of peace, joy and love that is indescribable and so tangible people can see His Light shining through us!  

What a great way to celebrate the Christ Child, the Messiah!  We are giving back to Christ the gift that ‘found us first’ in a God who has loved us from the beginning of time.   

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Love That Meets Us Where We Are

  Christmas is such an amazing season.  There’s so much love, warmth, goodwill and happiness all around.  Adding to this are the bright lights, decorated Christmas trees and yards, with people looking festive and wonderful!  

NOT EVERYONE IS MERRY

As I reflect on this, there’s another side to the story.  Some people find this time of year particularly depressing.  It’s not that they don’t appreciate the festivities, but somewhere in their life, they likely experienced a profound loss and it left them jaded, not only about the holiday itself, but their wound leaves them wondering if Christ is even real. 

They feel lost and struggle to believe God honestly loves them.  They feel emotionally distant from God, betrayed and left alone. So instead of enjoying this time, they bury themselves in work or another activity that will provide a hiding place that will separate and distract them from what they subconsciously, still know is truth; that Christmas is a reason for celebration: Jesus is the reason for the season.

GOD IS STILL GOD

It isn’t God that abandoned them;  it’s they who now doubt His sincerity and even His power.  They may even harbor guilt because once they did believe in the Christ, and long for that tender, personal relationship, and belief they once had.

Christmas is the perfect time to rekindle a relationship with Jesus.  While initiating a quiet conversation with God may not seem like much to you, it means so very much to Him.  He chose you, and loves you right here, right where you are, right now!

His love does not depend on how you are feeling, your performance, or how far away you feel at this very moment.  God just wants you to come to him.  His love is not fragile; it’s a never ending, eternal love.

THE ARRIVAL OF THE CHRIST CHILD

       It’s the perfect time to remember how he even came to our earth.  His coming had been waited on for many, many years.  And missing His arrival were the very ones who had been waiting!  Their expectations were not seeing a tiny baby in a manger.  They wanted a fiery, strong, warrior to free them from the Romans.

But God doesn’t work that way.  He works in the hearts of people, just like yours and mine.  He came for those who don’t seem to have it all together, who don’t seem to have all the right answers, who can’t seem to take another step forward.  He came for the broken, the forgotten, the sick and betrayed. 

YOU WERE WORTH COMING FOR

His manger says ‘You’re worth coming for,”  He came down from heaven to show you just how much he loves you!  His love meets you exactly where you are.  He wants you to come to Him just as you are, and is seeking a relationship that is profoundly unique.  His gifts of peace, hope and love can’t be replaced with anything this world offers.          

ACCEPT HIS GIFTS; EMBRACE CHRISTMAS

        Accepting these gifts, allows you to experience the joy of Christmas as you understand the blessings of our Savior’s birth; even if your world doesn’t seem ‘all perfect and right.’  If you know Jesus as your Savior, you will receive strength to walk through anything this world can throw at you.

As you embrace Christmas, may His Light shine on you with a new view at the world around you.  Our world is, in some ways, upside down and inside out!  But we, as Believers, can know a God who loves us and meets us right where we are!  

Merry Christmas!

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