A friend of mine
faced a battle of low self-esteem for years.
She was convinced she could do nothing right and found herself hiding
from the reality of life. She wanted to
run away and hide; walk away from all that seemed torture to her, but no one
knew about. Even with the “world” she
lived in, she wanted to have a ministry in the church she attended. Yet even here, she doubted. She was certain God could not work within the
bad place she found herself.
I think we all do that
sometimes. We make a bad decision and
find ourselves in the middle of something we’d rather not deal with. Sometimes it isn’t even a bad decision, but
circumstances beyond our control.
Regardless, we attempt to figure out our worth based on our situation and
ways we can fix our problems. It often
just seems an impossible state of affairs, causing an already frustrated
person, to feel depression and despair! In
the process of all this discouragement, we miss the most dynamic answer to our
problem: ----including God in the equation.
That seems to be the human way. Even the disciples wrestled with these
feelings when Christ asked them to feed the large crowd of people who had
gathered to hear Jesus speak. They knew
they couldn’t provide food for the crowd, and only thought of their incapability and weakness at that
moment. They weren’t considering that
God could work in that place.
If Believers can feel like this, an
even greater likelihood of this self-doubt burdens the non-Christian, who is sure
they’ve led such an awful life, God can’t possibly forgive them!
What keeps us from considering God’s
power as the primary means to accomplish anything? What makes us believe God’s “arm is too short,”
or that the location is just too tough a setting for The Lord to work in, through or from!?
Sadly, when this happens we are
demonstrating faithlessness. In a world
that seems to have turned on itself with a seemingly deliberate act of
violence, hate, injustice or understanding, it’s easy for Christians to stand
aside quietly without rebuking the evil and go along with the crowd, even when their heart is
breaking and conscience quaking, because they barely recognize their vulnerability. Over time our senses are dulled, as we inadvertently
conform to the world, rather than standing strong in the Lord.
It’s not a deliberate act of
disobedience, but our “store of faith” is depleted as we attempt to fit in our
individual circles. In addition to this
element, add our work and career demands, along with family responsibilities, and it seems to leave very little time to reach for security in Christ through His Word or
through prayer.
Our priorities are skewed and it
affects every area of our lives…..even the testimony of our faith life. I encourage you to look beyond “the place you
find yourself.” Know, without a doubt
God can work in this place---no matter what the 'place'! Open your
heart and mind to Him and watch your world take on new meaning.